Who Am I?

Hello, my name is Thomas! I am so glad you decided to read this blog. Before I go to in depth about what my goals are, I want to tell you about myself and why I am writing this for others! And what lead me down this path.

It started sometime in August of 2013. My wife (now ex) filed for divorce. I was stunned, shocked, speechless, angry...so many emotions were built up. At first I refused to sign the papers (control of events). I later started thinking of why I was refusing then gave in ( rationalization). During this time it took about a day or two for me to just say fuck it and sign the papers. I tried to convince her we could work this out (begging, bartering). She of course refused. I then made the decision to move to another state and get away from this (avoidance). As I sat on a bus for 3 days I felt that by me moving and trying to "work " on myself we could get back together (delusion). The reality was something completely different.

Oct 1 2013. when reality ( rationalization) decided to beat out control, begging, bartering, delusion and avoidance. As I realized that I had fooled myself that my ex would take me back, the pain that I was hiding and not dealing with correctly decided that now was the perfect time to show its ugly head. At this moment I crashed. I let the pain and depression win and attempted suicide. I won't go into great details about it, but it was very painful. It also started me on this path to figuring out how to overcome what I call situational emotions ( in this case depression).

Now, lets talk about you! Are you depressed? Just got out of a relationship? Family member pass away? Struggling to deal with the emotions? Can't seem to move forward? Constantly thinking of your ex or the family member?

If you said yes to any of these questions this is for you! My aim is to give you the skills to overcome these events that seem to control your life for an extended period of time. So, you can go back to enjoying your life. Remember, its not the event that controls us its what we do to respond to that event that does!

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